It is the message of child abuse survivors against the man who used her for his own sexual satisfaction.
At one stage, York Crown Court heard she was very worried about what Richard David Pennock, 44, had done her and had taken a pregnancy test. She also thought about taking her life.
Pennock, the Lower Pickering Cliff, currently serves eight years in prison and is on the lifetime register of sex offenders.
He is also subject to a 15-year restraining order banning contact with survivors and mentioning her on social media, and is banned from working with children and vulnerable adults.
He denied five counts of sexually assaulting her, but was found guilty at the York ju trial late last year. Ju-deans acquitted him on two charges of attempted rape, but he also denied that.
I heard that York Crown Court was much older than the child when the abuse occurred.
Judge Simon Hickey said Pennock used emotional and mental pressure to get the child to do what he wanted. The pressure included claiming he was depressed and met a counselor.
Michael Greenhulg, who is currently in charge, said Pennock “extensively groomed” the survivors and gave them alcohol, adult toys and a secret phone. He told her to keep the abuse a secret.
In a personal statement read to the court, she said: “The impact on me was enormous.”
She said that nightmares and crying occurred on sleepless nights. She was watching therapists and counselors while working through the trauma she was suffering from.
She was self-harmed and had the idea of suicide. At one stage she was homeless and penniless, but now she has returned her life.
In her direct message to Pennock, she said:
Police praised the survivors for their courage to move forward and provide evidence against Pennoch.
Gillian Butts for Pennock says he doesn't expect him to see his older parents again and breaks up with them before coming to court, knowing he's about to receive a long sentence. I told him.
She cited the probation officer's assessment that Pennock is unlikely to re-offend.
The judge said after reading the reference handed over by the defense that Pennock had “an exemplary good character” before his belief. He worked for the same company for 23 years.
